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Don’t pass judgment on me, until you’ve resurrected my pain and feel what flows through me each day.

So what am I supposed to do
I’m lyin’ here lookin’ out the window,
and the sky isn’t blue
there’s this dark cloud over my head,
my mind’s spinnin’, can’t get over the words ya said
thought I was dreamin’, but reality hit
so now I’m thinkin’, but that’s all I ever do
just can’t seem to get over the truth
I let you have the last laugh, nothin’ I could do
nobody knows my pain, as well as you
‘cause ya fucked up my head
thought cha could play me like a fool,
but the Clown is out and the Joker’s got his eyes on you
card so ace, slice you up, smile, ‘cause I just won the game
so step back and let me enjoy this feast, mothafucka
watch you suffer for 16 years, as I, both mentally and physically
endured all the shit you’ve put me through!

So if there’s a FUCK, it’s YOU
wish I could get away with murder,
‘cause death would come for you
but a piece of shit isn’t worth life behind bars
but instead of bars, four walls
is all I’ve ever known, stuck, with my demons
but I’ve made friends in this prison,
rose up from my pain, the many tears I’d shed,
the shadows in my head tellin’ me to spill your blood
and as for your funeral, I’d spit in your damn face
yeah, I’ve got a lot of hate buried deep, entwined in me
like the ivy that surrounds your name, the thorns,
releasing that chemical you love so much
yes sir, have another drink on me
hope you’re thinkin’ ‘bout all the lives you’ve wrecked
stolen, for they were children, innocence knows you not!

Sit back mothafucka, this is your last supper
may your god bury you — no, not six feet under!
rest on that of which you believe, ‘cause if there’s a god
through these nails in your wrists may you bleed
I’ll drink it ‘til the last drop, good like Maxwell House
so keep drippin’ for those you’ve touched
may peace be with us.

Categories: Poetry
Tags: #Raps

Comments (12)

  • brian miller . June 11, 2013 . Reply

    ha…whew…way to blow off some steam bradley…ha…really nice word play in this..particularly around the playing cards…and then again around the last supper…and you know i have to ask….do you feel better? smiles

    • (Author) Bradley Howington . June 11, 2013 . Reply

      Thank you ever so much Brian. I do feel a little better. 🙂

  • Grace . June 11, 2013 . Reply

    I was reading this like a song…then it became a full length rant ~ May peace be on both of you ~ Smiles ~

    • (Author) Bradley Howington . June 11, 2013 . Reply

      Um, Grace, I could never wish the one who molested me peace. Thank you for stopping by and reading.

  • Ginny Brannan . June 11, 2013 . Reply

    Wooh, lot of venting going on here. By the looks, pent up for years. I read this as a rap, sort of Eminem style. Hope you find some peace.

    • (Author) Bradley Howington . June 11, 2013 . Reply

      16 years, Ginny. 16 miserable years. Thank you so much. ♥

  • ayala . June 13, 2013 . Reply

    Good word play and a lot of venting.Good job.

    • (Author) Bradley Howington . June 13, 2013 . Reply

      Thank you so much Ayala! ♥

  • Anna :o] . June 13, 2013 . Reply

    Keep on venting Bradley – for as long as you need – but not for the rest of your life or your molester retains ultimate control – don’t give him that.
    Hope you find peace too.

    • (Author) Bradley Howington . June 13, 2013 . Reply

      I will not allow him to hold me down. Thank you Anna. ♥

  • Beth Carrignant . July 5, 2013 . Reply

    I read it three times so far. Knocked me over. Very powerful.

    • (Author) Bradley Howington . July 5, 2013 . Reply

      Thanks for reading Beth. Lovely of you to stop by. ♥

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