Bradley Howington

In the Rain

Bradley Howington — Sat, 18 May 2013 16:45:32 +0000

I want to be there by your side
I want to drink all of my pride
for it’s you I’ve lost in the rain
can’t take it back, wish I could
take it all back tonight
what I said, I didn’t mean,
you know anger had its way
and with me it’s ridin’ the night
it’s ridin’ the night with —

There’s so much more I’d love to say
but I’m lost for words, can’t speak
‘round you I feel forever weak
‘cause you’ve planted your feelings deep
I’m the Earth, and you’re stone beneath
my shovel hits so jagged
I’ve cut you again and again, left my mark
but it’s you who’s stole my heart
forevermore, foreverness
we belong to Death

Now hear my words ring true
nothing false within my core
burnin’ on, a flame forever weak
this is what you do to me
and as much as I try to fight, it’ll never die
this flame within, these voices win
I’m dark once again

The voices of love cast a shadow
what I said, I didn’t mean,
you know anger had its way
and with me it’s ridin’ the night
burnin’ out slowly in this storm
palms down, knees wet
standing in the rain for a match
that’ll never ignite my core
I’m fading away
the dark is all I’ve known
let it be the rest I crave,
‘cause forever I’ll kneel alone
in the rain, the poison which drains
every drop of fuel from me

What I said, I didn’t mean,
you know anger had its way
and with me it’s ridin’ the night
let it take —

One

Bradley Howington — Fri, 17 May 2013 12:08:04 +0000

My days have come to this
I am one within the sun
hydrogen speaketh my name
to I knoweth no one.

Backwards

Bradley Howington — Tue, 14 May 2013 02:16:22 +0000

struggles my knows Nobody
shoes these in walk will who
misery of shore a beside
seen been already what’s neglecting
backwards walk I forever
forward the from myself freeing
is there all is back knowing
eraser an for long I memories these is it but
permanent is ink my though

Nobody knows my struggles
who will walk in these shoes
beside a shore of misery
neglecting what’s already been seen
forever I walk backwards
freeing myself from the forward
knowing back is all there is
but it is these memories I long for an eraser
though my ink is permanent

Sacrificial

Bradley Howington — Fri, 10 May 2013 12:38:19 +0000

Whack me down a Halloween night
a wolf barely hanging on to moonlight.
Vampire teeth taketh this vein,
watch me wither away, become nothing again.
This ghoulish life, taketh one sacrifice,
to ride the night on jack-o’-lantern smiles.

Flawed

Bradley Howington — Fri, 10 May 2013 02:09:51 +0000

Petals and poetry, puddles of peonies
light my way along this crumbling path
where the rain has struck me, and fallen, I have
many times I carry myself with perfection
but this perfectionist is flawed.
Nights I calmly whisper my inner feelings
to myself, as I fall into a not so deep sleep.
No one to hear the cries, but four cracked walls
and maybe my pillows join the conversation.

Spring

Bradley Howington — Wed, 08 May 2013 23:34:48 +0000

Winter has gone, and taken with it the snow
spring breathes its life into nature once again
nights are still cold, we’ve yet to see warmth’s weekend
upon this day, we’ll wait for nature to welcome us
mourning winter’s passing with flowers in hand.

Glass

Bradley Howington — Wed, 01 May 2013 23:13:24 +0000

Cheer me up with your smile,
break me down with your words,
I am just glass within your eyes
the vase which your dying rose sings
I am the water leaking through the cracks
of every thorn, lacking the nutrients of love.

FUCK YOU

Bradley Howington — Fri, 26 Apr 2013 03:36:30 +0000

So what am I supposed to do
I’m lyin’ here lookin’ out the window,
and the sky isn’t blue
there’s this dark cloud over my head,
my mind’s spinnin’, can’t get over the words ya said
thought I was dreamin’, but reality hit
so now I’m thinkin’, but that’s all I ever do
just can’t seem to get over the truth
I let you have the last laugh, nothin’ I could do
nobody knows my pain, as well as you
‘cause ya fucked up my head
thought cha could play me like a fool,
but the Clown is out and the Joker’s got his eyes on you
card so ace, slice you up, smile, ‘cause I just won the game
so step back and let me enjoy this feast, mothafucka
watch you suffer for 16 years, as I, both mentally and physically
endured all the shit you’ve put me through!

So if there’s a fuck, it’s YOU
wish I could get away with murder,
‘cause death would come for you
but a piece of shit isn’t worth life behind bars
but instead of bars, four walls
is all I’ve ever known, stuck, with my demons
but I’ve made friends in this prison,
rose up from my pain, the many tears I’d shed,
the shadows in my head tellin’ me to spill your blood
and as for your funeral, I’d spit in your damn face
yeah, I’ve got a lot of hate buried deep, entwined in me
like the ivy that surrounds your name, the thorns,
releasing that chemical you love so much
yes sir, have another drink on me
hope you’re thinkin’ ‘bout all the lives you’ve wrecked
stolen, for they were children, innocence knows you not!

Sit back mothafucka, this is your last supper
may your god bury you — no, not six feet under!
rest on that of which you believe, ‘cause if there’s a god
through these nails in your wrists may you bleed
I’ll drink it ‘til the last drop, good like Maxwell House
so keep drippin’ for those you’ve touched
may peace be with us.

Good Night

Bradley Howington — Tue, 23 Apr 2013 02:51:28 +0000

Sleep will now inflame me
as in deadly adventures
through my dreams.
May they keep me longing
dare me to see what reality
truly has to offer.

Wrathful

Bradley Howington — Mon, 22 Apr 2013 15:56:33 +0000

Wrath me at my darkest hour
bring to me a poisoned flower
perish me now with the moon possessed
release me, be gone, let me rest.